• Miss Gordon

ECS 110- Self Story #4

Self-story #4: Use one of the following prompts to begin to tell a detailed story about a particular moment related to your gender identification.

“Just hit her! She’s only a girl!”. This was one of many comments that were yelled at me while I played the male-dominated sport of hockey. Why did being a girl make me any different than a boy playing hockey? I spent many years hearing the echoes of parents yelling and criticizing my skill because I was a girl. I played hockey at a competitive level for 14 years and didn't once let the negativity bring me down. I just couldn't comprehend why being a girl had anything to do with me playing hockey. Why did my gender change my talent? What made me different? One day it finally clicked. I wasn’t “normal”. I was a girl playing a male-dominated sport. I was supposed to be a ballerina in a pink tutu, not a hockey player. I was born in a time in our world that gender was not questioned. If you were born a female you wore pink and were a ballerina. If you were a boy you wore blue and was a hockey player. I challenged the social normality. I was a girl playing hockey. I was different and society shunned me for it. I wasn’t a “girly-girl”. From the moment I could articulate words I was a girl. I have never once questioned my gender. I didn’t question my gender just because I was a girl who played hockey. I was a girl and my interests didn't change my identity. I believe that I have always performed my gender proudly and perfectly, but I wasn’t your typical “girly girl”. Don’t get me wrong I love makeup and fashion, but, there are parts of me that aren’t your typical “girly-girl”. When I am dressed in my hockey equipment and have my skates strapped on, I am still a girl. When I am wearing jeans, a bunnyhug, and a baseball cap, I am still a girl. When I am in my hockey tracksuit, I am still a girl. Hockey has shaped me into the strong and powerful young woman I am today. There were parts of my life that I had different experiences with girls and boys. When I would hang out with boys we would do all things hockey. When I would hang out with girls we would play barbies, house, crafts, hairdresser, and spa. My life with females has always been normal in regards to societal normality but when I was with the boys I challenged society.